Cancer

My father fell last Sunday and broke his right hip and knee. He is in so much pain. I literally HATE pain, I HATE cancer, I HATE pain. I get mad and wonder how can I make it go away? I think if my dad sees the kids he will want to fight more. I understand there is nothing I can do, but I HATE it! I fall apart and can't function. I want to cry uncontrollably and scream. My father just cries and doesn't want to see anyone. He can't help it, he gets angry because he can't do what he wants to do or communicate for that matter. My mother is worn down and I, barely able to stand up.