Wednesday, December 23, 2020

What's a woman to do?

 I made a Facebook post commenting on women that post mainly pictures of themselves only in swimsuits, wearing next to nothing or with their makeup perfectly done with filters. Hinting they want attention with these sort of post. I took it down understanding people were taking it personally. My intention was not to appear judgmental. To be honest, I was drinking at the time. A part of me awakened to defining acceptance and judgment. Hence the pictures of their definition. I don’t blame women feeling the need to express themselves so strongly due to the fact that women have been oppressed since the beginning of time. We’ve been silenced, abused, sexualized, raped, removed rights, been told where “our place” is. If those aren’t reasons to get lit over, angered & traumatized....I don’t know what would be. Many men have been taught that women are objects to be looked at, as someone to care for all their basic needs: food, maids, mothers, sex, etc. Not as equals that are smart, strong, and deserving of respect. Some women agree it is better to be seen and not heard. Women tearing down other women for their personal gain or selfish jealousy is another painful to have to watch. This is the exact opposite of acceptance, which brings me back to why I posted my drunken thoughts on social media the day before. 

Here it is: when we accept ourselves, we open the way to accept others. We won’t need to feel acceptance from anyone else. We will have the freedom to not take others actions or words personally, nor make assumptions. To look at others as a mirror, a reflection of one's own opinion. Basically, if I’m insecure, I’ll see insecurities. If I’m strong, I’ll see strength, if I’m mad...you get my drift? I could go on and on, but I need to go love on some women right now. 


Tuesday, October 20, 2020

God


If God’s love is like the ocean, why do I not feel the crash of the waves? How can I possibly get lost in His love that goes deep and wide beyond any measurement of time? A love that fearlessly embraces you as you are...never holding back forgiveness & grace? Peace that offers assurance of never ending freedom sounds too good to be true. Yet, if I stand still, I understand. If I sit in observance I see it. If I lay down I feel it as if a dream has taken me into its three-dimensional world. May I be yours God, & you be mine. 

Sunday, October 18, 2020

Self

 Yesterday I saw a surfboard that said “May the sea set you free.” In that moment I felt it register throughout every fiber of my being. Years of abusive relationships, it’s as if I finally woke up. Two years ago I let someone in. For 40 years I had walls and allowed my insecurities to flow freely. This one was gentle, kind, encouraging, believing in my talents and pursued me for a year. He persisted, I didn’t understand why at the time. Today, I’m beyond grateful because I was able to discover my worth during that time. Unconditional love and acceptance set me free. Love like an ocean gave me freedom. The uncontrollable waves crashed my thoughts of never succeeding and tolerating abuse. Water that attracts those ready to fully live surrounded me. Those who want to explore a world unknown and willing to learn how to soar with the birds. Yes, I gave in. I stripped my clothes of imprisonment and embraced something new. It was different from anything I’ve ever known. Trust? Peace? No, freedom. Freedom to be the little girl I was born to be. I’m here, I’m accepting the unpredictable wonders that may come my way with an open heart. No more judgment, just instinct. I’m not required to do anything or be a certain way, I’m free to imagine. I’m worthy to be loved, to love, I’m worthy to be here because I’m here. Someone opened the door to my soul and I saw the glory of which I was made of. It is absolutely amazing. The coolest part is, sit down....you really need to hear this, WE ARE THE SAME. That bright light that blinds you in the mornings is only your reflection. Chew on that and see how incredible it taste.