Passing pain

Through all these years, I've suffered and felt pain so deep as if it was unbearable. No one knew, I hid it from you. My heart was heavy, my soul was pushed down. My smile was covering the hurt and holding back the tears. I was completely alone & believed that is the way it had to be. I tried to fight back, I thought I could protect myself. Misery consumed my thoughts, I made it my reality. Hope did not exist as I was stuck inside a dried up well. I wasn't ever good enough, not even for myself.
Then, I let go, I gave in. I surrendered to the pain and welcomed the shame. I cried out loud and let you in. I shared my brokenness and showed you my wounds. I silenced the lies and spoke truth to fear. Ego couldn't bear it, he grasped his last breath. As I crashed unto the shore completely bare with nothing left, I opened my heart to see miracles burst forth. Not knowing others were watching the whole time. I saw freedom arise. Unspeakable love filled the air, the impossible became possible, and healing rejuvenated my entire being. An explosion of grace consumed me as when I first believed. It was then I woke up to find how LOVE relinquishes debt of any kind and restores the most barren of souls. The weight is not mine to carry anymore. I discovered why I am here, to channel love & light that only comes from a place of immeasurable joy. Grateful for these lessons, because without the pain I would not be where I stand today....watching miracles come forth as if they mimic the  oceans waves. Never ending love, eternities peace, and power beyond mountain peaks.

morning shenanigans

I look up and see your glory

I am in awe of your splendor

I love you

Yet I feel through the years I've only scratched the surface of understanding who you really are

I long to be yours

I desire deeper intimacy

I want to burst out of this temporary shell

Exploring beyond the boundaries of this physical realm

What's your power?

Today, I choose to use my power to send love & light to someone that has inflicted pain, suffering, hardship, & vengeance towards me. Love will prevail & be victorious!

Mother Earth

Earth, it's my playground, my home, my space, & always teaches me to be aware. Stay grounded friends, make love, & keep your hearts full of thanksgiving. Take care of Mother Earth as she does the same for us.

Wishful thoughts

My wish for my friends today is that you may never have to face the trials that I have had. May you never experience the hate from haters like mine. May your heart be so full of love that if you do face this kind of turmoil or evil that you can shine as if you are the sun beaming light into a dark place. May we all be strong enough to embrace others with kindness when it feels as if knives are being thrown. May you have a faith strong enough that you never feel alone. If you ever experience tears of anguish, may the joy that surpasses this life flow freely through you as healing power. I pray you be filled with hope and spread peace, that you understand you have nothing to fear. This life and sorrow are temporary, learn to breathe today & rest in love. Amen.

❤️️

Love makes all things right. It wakes us up in the morning with a sense of purpose & a flow of creative ideas. Shows us how to atone for our errors & clean up the mess when we've made mistakes. Love fills us with a powerful charisma, leading us to serve, forgive & to hope. Choose love today my friends.

I see you...

When a man sees me, I wonder if he's intimidated because he sees the fullness of who I am or that I see him for he fully is....or could be?

Back up.....

Wouldn't it be great if we all had back up in life, like in the movies.....when the lead actress/actor starts singing & the back up singers join in. Seriously, just look at the 'Walking Dead' series, none of the zombies travel alone, they stay in packs. Maybe, I should just be a zombie. So, when the kids be talking back my zombie crew could pop their head through the screen door and grunt, wha-la! No more attitude! Or I could be at work and the boss says something about a pay cut, I could say "me and my gang will see you tonight!" Thinking he/she might be eaten alive, thinks twice and I get a raise instead. Just a thought. #singleparenting #work #life #wheresmytribe #lol

Life in a 📦

I don't focus on this, yet when I come across it, it saddens me that my children have to witness such ignorance. The political rants, the name calling, the prejudice and sexist comments, the limited minds people have and feel justified to shout out. We ALL have our own reality & right to believe what we believe. Bullying or making fun of another human for what they see value in is wrong. I long for a day when everyone will respect each other no matter what they believe. When the human race will walk in integrity & compassion. It's simple, I don't make fun of you for celebrating at a football game, so why call me "crazy" for getting excited about God at church? My youngest son was minding his own when some unaware human told him ppl called me "crazy" at church because I act as if I'm at a football game. Let's turn the tables & imagine we were at a church in Africa.....the congregation would wonder what's wrong with you if you were sitting still in your seat. Newsflash, WE ARE NOT ALL THE SAME, some of us are more traveled, educated, sensitive, trained, and NOT COOKIE CUT OUT(perhaps limited to a some school system nor family upbringing) or didn't swallow some sort of brain washing pill that demands "this way is the ONLY way!" If we all realized this, could you imagine what an entirely different world we would live in?!?!? Let's all wake up, learn a lesson, become an adult by not taking things personal and not making assumptions. Life is to be lived in love and with a grateful heart.
#sermonsunday #dontliveinabox #brainsnotlooks

A place called love....

For the first time, I danced under the moon. Letting my inner woman roar louder than the waves crashing against the shore. I let the freedom within me escape, it shined brighter than the stars above. My soul jumped with joy because it FINALLY realized sin, nor death, nor my enemies chains have no hold on me! The cold sand melting  through my hands and feet, my heart sharing its story through every beat. Declaring my surrender to you, opening up and giving in. My hair softly brushing against my face, flowing with the wind. Allowing my eyes to see for the first time, my breathe full, and my mind at peace. Thank you love, thank you father, thank you for your grace and the forever wealth of your healing!
-🐞kca🐢